Schizophrenia: My biggest delusions 😵‍💫 Living with schizophrenia 🧠

Your honest sharing of delusions really helps me to realize that my own terrifying delusions are in-fact not reality, which is very reassuring! Thank you.

I have schizoaffective disorder and struggle with delusions every day. It's so nice to know I'm not alone

Thank you ! You are educating many of us who care and love individuals who live with schizophrenia as you. My son's psychosis moments we very similar to yours. He too wanted to live in the forest in a tent to flee the crowds and live in isolation . He too experienced deep anxiety over neighbors talking about him,coworkers poisoning his food and sabotaging his vehicle. People breaking in to our home though all door locks were changed and cameras set up to his request. Not leaving the home for nearly a year due to anxiety and delusions. Medication has greatly helped, took nearly two years find the med combination that settled his psychosis. Also, a therapy dog has helped tremendously. One lingering issue is not showering for months, changes cloths regularly, but brushing teeth and bathing are a struggle. Listening to this video is educational and heart touching.please know your are a great teacher and helping many of us to understand what it is like living with schizophrenia. ❤❤❤

I want you to know that I feel how hard this must be for you, sharing all of this. This is so very personal and you being vulnerable with these struggles and nuances that are still bothering you, is so so so very brave. Your sharing may not be helping many people, but it is helping enough people. Thank you!

You are very brave. Thank you for sharing the reality of living with schizophrenia.

I relate so much to the neighbor delusions. I thought I was being harassed by neighbors who were a part of a noise campaign by the CIA. I thought I was a "targeted individual" and my hallucinations played into that. They thought I was treatment resistant until they tried me on Invega and now everything is basically gone. It was such a miserable experience. I can't believe how stressed I was. I'm sorry you have to deal with this. You're not alone. I hope things get better for you!

I had no idea that other people suffered from these delusions too! I didn't realise they were delusions until I saw this video about the neighbours, I'm constantly creeping around my flat and scared to make noise

I have a schizophrenic friend whose main delusion is becoming invisible against his will. I’m not mentally ill, but I’ve felt and still feel “invisible” a lot, so that would likely be my delusion too, if I had schizophrenia. He usually gets this delusion when they change his meds and he gets hospitalized. Whenever I go visit him while he’s psychotic, he tells me that he’s happy because I have “a special vision” that allows me to see him and therefore he feels safe. I know he might sound stupid to most people, but I can consider his trust one of my biggest accomplishments in life!

My most common delusions are that I have HIV or cancer or some kind of illness that even doctors don't know how to treat, I also think that people put acid or poison in my food and also I am sooo scared of animals because I think that they are demons who are spying on me. I have many others extreme delusions. I also experience hallucinations, I see flies that aren't here and also I see polar lights sometimes. Funny thing is that I also heard moon talking to me. I hear many voices in my head all the time, some bad some good- I call them personalities. I also think that I experience dissociation? Idk, I sometimes forget who I am and where I am and everything feels like a video game-not real.I am 23 years old and I started to experience these symptoms just a few months ago but I am already on antipsychotics. They do help but only like 50%. So my doctor wants me to stay at psych ward to start a more complex treatment since my symptoms are pretty strong. Life with schizofrenia is very hard. Its an everyday battle cause sometimes it gets very overwhelming.

While watching your video I remembered YouTube channel that’s called “Living well with schizophrenia”. The creator of the channel, Lauren, has schizoaffective disorder and recently she (onboard with her psychiatrist, psychologist and keto-coach) started her keto journey that goes surprisingly well. IN NO WAY I suggest you to start keto but maybe it will be interesting for you to check out her videos. Lauren is talking a lot about the reduction of her symptoms (and the doctors are not concerned about her health as well) so I though that maybe if you are treatment resistent, something like this might help. Also keto seems to help really well with easing symptoms of diabetes, which is also nice. Once again, I don’t want this to look like I give you an advice of any sort, because I don’t know your situation and your struggles fully and I am not educated about keto either. So I guess it’s just a recommendation of a very nice YouTube channel 😊 Hope you won’t find my message rude or intrusive, because I wish you all the best in the world❤

Thanks for sharing! This is really helpful for people who aren’t even formally diagnosed with Schizophrenia since everyone lives with delusions about the world and themselves. I urge you to look into Buddhist psychology - maybe even visit a Buddhist temple in Sweden. There are fantastic virtual resources by Ajahn Sumedo (an American monk trained in Thailand) from the Amaravati Buddhist Monastery (a monastery in England) channel here on YouTube.

i have the same delusion with my neighbors. they do it on purpose! and i must be so quiet that i barely exist bc otherwise they will take revenge .. 😭😄 haha it's awful to feel such paranoia for years no matter where you live. the moon thing sounds terrifying! :(

I know how it feels, I have bipolar and co-ocurring ocd..I also have delusions. So hard you just believe them as truth.. so hard to get out of their grasp. But we are trying 😊❤

Heck yeah, I feel you on the criminal minds bit. Thank you for being open enough to share this.

When my schizophrenia was new I had a lot of communication through walls. At times I would try to get away from the madness by leaving. I thought it worked. I haven't had that style of communication through walls in decades.

Thanks Kimberly! I always enjoy your videos! ❤

I really wish I was as brave to do what you do and be so open about myself. I just hope you know how very strong you actually are. There really should be a television series where people who have schizophrenia are more accurately portrayed. I distrust a lot of people as well. I tend to believe I am always judged or people are thinking terrible things about me. I think this is just from the negative experiences I had as a child. I do have a funny story about a neighbor. When I used to smoke, I had to go outside. I always thought this neighbor was laughing or talking about me. We never really met until our neighborhood flooded. He said to me that he "knew" I probably thought he was strange. So he was actually worried about what I was thinking about him that whole time. I admitted that I thought he was thinking the same about me. We had a good laugh about it.

I’m just curious why delusions are mostly about being watched, spayed on or being poisoned or killed and not about something opposite

Hi Kimberly, you look fantastic! Thank you for sharing and making us aware of some of the things you have struggled with. Kim, you have friends....please think of me as your far away friend. Have a great weekend and I look forward to your next video

Thank you for being so honest, real and vulnerable. I totally relate to the neighbour one. I get really upset and think my neighbours have turned on their pigeon scarer even after I told them that the noise bothers me. It’s more that I get obsessed about it and use it as an excuse not to record my singing because the noise would be in the background.