ICE SEGUERRA ON BATTLING 17 YEARS OF DEPRESSION. Surviving The Darkest Moments | Karen Davila Ep69

Thank you sooooo much for watching our episode with Ice 🥰 I hope this episode was able to help and encourage all of you - there is always hope and light at the end of the tunnel. Basta may buhay po, may pag-asa 🙏🏻 Pls get the help you need of you are experiencing any of the symptoms mentioned 🙏🏻

I've (28 yrs old) been diagnosed with depression on 2019, here in Denmark. But I know ever since 2014, I've always had it. Now I'm on Sertraline, 125 mg a day. I have been back to my old self: Like when I was in 6th grade na you're just present in the moment. Happy, playful, proactive sa environment mo, iiyak pag nadapa, tatawa pag may funny, naiinis pag may nakakairita-- you know, just like a "normal" human being with "normal" feelings and reactions to things. And then I started to wake up late. Ayoko nang magschool. Wala na akong desire to push or go through things, like finishing college. Even waking up in the morning para pumunta ng school, nawala na yung internal motivation. And then sa bathroom in the morning, nakaupo lang ako and wait until I want to start taking a bath. Not because I'm still sleepy, but because parang empty ako on the inside. Shempre life events happened, and you continue to get up everyday. My dad was diagnosed with cancer, eventually passed away. I changed college thrice. I wasn't very stable in my decisions. It was important for me to jump from one relationship to another kase I didn't wanna be left feeling empty. Always out with friends so that I'm never alone. And that is one of the reasons why even your own family cannot see that you are going through depression. Because even I was also doing my best to fill myself up, to prevent from feeling empty or numb. When I moved here in Denmark it got worse na. My feeling of emptiness, blue, parang gray clouds in my head na feeling. And then my husband would always ask me bakit I'm always looking down on the road while we walk. It was like I was very empty, and the emptiness is what hurts talaga. Kase you know it's not normal, you cannot shake it away. You cannot help yourself. Kaya I would then start to cry coz "I don't feel okay". It was aggravated by the fact na I moved away from my homecountry, homesick, etc. So I would cry and cry because I would get tired of the emptiness, the loneliness na hindi mo ma-explain bakit nandyan. And then ayokong lumabas. Gusto ko lang nasa bed. Natutulog ako buong araw. Nasa bed lang. And then I would hate myself for wasting another day. I would "fall over" very easily: I was mean to my family kase I was easily aggravated. I was hurting inside, and would bark at the wrong tree. I hated it so much when my husband would ask me: Are you depressed? What did you do today, love? --- I hated it so much. Because I hated not feeling in control of myself, my time, my energy, my body, my productivity. When I was finally diagnosed, it felt so good-- it's true. Because now there's a name for it. Totoo talaga ang sinabi ni Ice. Now you understand yourself better, you understand your brain better. You understand that the chemicals in your brain need a little push, it needs a little help. When I started to understand that, I started to forgive myself and say "It will be okay, let's get through this together." With my medication, I then realized na it has been four or five weeks and I was really really doing soooo much better. You know, everyday things, na your healthy brain would do like singing, laughing, dancing, getting up, cleaning the house, making friends, interest in going out, yung mga ganun? Like I was back to my old self again. I said sa sarili ko, how I wish I had already asked for professional help since 2014 pa. I didn't realize na I missed out on so much kase I was just floating with depression. Luckily, hindi naman ako umabot sa point of being suicidal. That is something already very very very very serious. Please seek immediate help if this is your case. I don't go to therapy actually. It would be nice, it would be a really great mountain of help. I have just been in medication ever since, and I have been really doing better. It worked for me, and continues to do so. My brother passed away on a New Year's Day. I went through the process of grieving. The medication doesn't shield you from feeling things. But it sure did help me not to go down the dark spiral of depression again. I cry when I remember him, I feel hurt in my chest when I remember him. Pero no more depressive episodes like before. So the medication doesn't make you a zombie. It just helps your body and brain pump more serotonin on a healthy rate so you can live normally. People kase with depression, it is characterized by the brain's inability to produce serotonin like a healthy brain would. So no, the medication doesn't make you a zombie or change your personality. That's a misconception. You don't hear voices, even when you are in a downward spiral. Hearing voices is when you have schizophrenia, which is a different mental disorder naman-- where you hear things or see things. So no, you don't hear voices with depression. I have already been predisposed to depression and anxiety-- my dad was an alcoholic and my mom has borderline personality disorder. So my childhood was tough. Depression is not a feeling, or a phase. It is a disorder. It is attributed by the chemical things going on in your brain. So saying, "Just pray" or "be happy" or "Just exercise" doesn't help. Asking how they're feeling, when do they often feel this way, how can you help... those kinds of conversations help. And encouraging your friend or family to seek professional help is the MOST IMPORTANT. Thank you for this video. 🌸

habang pinapanood ko ito umiiyak ako dahil lahat ng nararanasan ni Ice dinaranas ngayon ng husband ko. Ang masakit yung hindi maintindihan ng ibang tao kung ano ang nararamdaman ng may depression.akala nila pinagmamalakihan mo sila pero ang hindi nila alam na nawawalan ng gana ang isang taong may depression dahil sa sobrang kalungkutan at may pinagdadaanan.

We all used to know Ice as Aiza Seguerra back in the day. Now we see a changed individual right in front of our eyes. Depression is difficult to combat and eventually come to terms with. We all need God's presence in our lives. I know that only God is capable of guiding us through our darkest moments. In God, we are able to find comfort, love and assurance. I'm certain this interview will inspire a lot of people.

Thank you Karen for this episode! We have the same dilema as Ice’s depression and still experiencing it until now. 😢 its not sadness. Suicidal - It’s depression that kills many lives. Hoping and praying that “This too shall pass”. God bless everyone😊

For me. Aiza Seguerra or Ice Seguerra, never sya nalaos. One of the ICONIC SINGER. 😊

Mahirap talaga pag dumaan ka sa depression 😢 danas ko din yan sobrang hirap at umabot pa ako sa puntong nagpakamatay ako nun diko kinaya 😢😢 pero nung makita ko mga anak ko na nahihirapan ng dahil sakin dun ako nag start na lumaban para sa kanila kinaya ko at nagpagaling ako para sa mga anak ko 😢 salamat kay AMA 👆🙏 nakita ko xang muli at nagpapasalamat ako sa mga anak ko dahil sa kanila gumaling ako at nilabanan ko Ang depression at ngaun ok nako kasama mga anak ko at masaya ng namumuhay ulit ❤ Happy family dito sa japan 🇯🇵

Ice is defenitely my favorite artist up until now..❤️❤️❤️ never ko naisip na nalaos sya, kasi walang makakapalit sa kanya at sa ambag nya sa industriya.❤️

i've been with ice since the day he joined eat bulaga's contest.... i rode with his journey, sang with his songs and watched his every performances.... i idolized him even im older than him... he's superb awesome witty and someone to look up to.... his music cures my depression and sickness.... ice is ice and i love adore and cares for him.. taong tao, totoong totoo at buhay na buhay.... hope to meet him in person

The best interview in the universe. Please let the whole world know that ice created a cure for someone who has depression. Very well said ice... " that this too will pass" i urge everyone who has depression to watch this. Really worthy of.

Thank you for sharing this interview. I too have been clinically diagnosed with depression and have gone through the worst just the past week. Everything Ice had mentioned I can so much relate with. It's true that even after all the medications, all the therapy, all the tools that you already have and the knowledge you possess about depression, when it hits you, it hits you talaga and it paralyzes you to the ground. Just watching this interview alone gave me a sense of a safe space lalo na its spreading awareness about depression. Its really important to have a strong support system that would lend an open ear without judgement. Kaya to everyone out there that are going through the same battle or any other mental health problems, you are all brave and know that everything shall pass. Kapit lang!

I totally can relate with Aiza. Been battling witj anxiety and dep for so many years. I am battling with severe gastric pains for years now. Kahit meds wala minsan nagagawa. This made me so depressed and wanted to end this pain several times now. Sana may ma interview pa na mga tao with anxiety and depression to spread awarenes about mental health.

Wow your stories exactly like my journey. I’m a nurse but recently diagnosed with PTSD anxiety depression, so overwhelming and I ended up not working for awhile. I am still recovering till now. Take care ❤️

Ice! Di kami nawala ng mga fans mo! we are still here. My mom love your hit single pagdating ng panahon. Please continue making music. you have a gift!! tagos hangang puso and very relatable ang mga songs that you create. Be strong and godbless 🙏🙏🙏

You are telling what I am going through. For me, it is longer than 17 years. Life to me is painful. When I wake up in the morning, I have to go get up and have to prepare for the day's grind. I am suicidal but I do not have the courage to end my life. Sa akin, instead of losing the appetite to eat, I overeat and yes, I oversleep. I do not take a bath for days. When I overeat, saka ko na lang ititigil kung may mga nararamdaman na ako. Until recently, because of overeating, I gained more than 8 kilos in less than three months. I became grossly fat, pumuputok ang aking mga damit. Mabigat ang paggalaw. Humina ang pagkilos. I was feeling so rotten. Because of the drastic weight gain in so short a time, my body wasn't able to metabolize the fats from all the food that I was eating that resulted in the growth of lipoma on my left deltoid. Dalawa ang doctor na nagsabi that it was an intinerant/abnormal growth caused by drastic weight gain in so short a time. It had to be surgically renoved. It was discovered second week of June and was removed on Aug. 10. When it was removed, it was the size of a large duck egg. Until now, mayroon akong iniinda. I pray...everyday...I am a spiritual person but this does not fill the vacuous feeling inside. It is painful to wake up everyday. I do not find meaning in life. I have a loving and satisfying family life but the void is gaping. There was a time that I used to take up meds but I stopped it. I also went through several psychotherapists but sinabihan nila ako na "tama na, kilala mo ang sarili mo. Alam mo ang coping mechanisms mo at alam mo kung kailan ka titigil sa ka-wa-wallow sa iyong coping mechanisms. Kilala mo ang sarili mo. Tam na, niloloko mo lang kami." Ang pinaka-coping mechanism ko ay food, then alcohol and cigarettes. I've stopped drinking and smoking but not food and sleeping. I am also manic depressive. There was a time when I used to spend about 8 to 10k on clothes, shoes and bags every month. Some times, more than 10k. Karamihan sa mga damit ay hindi ko nasusuot. After some months, I would feel being swallowed by the clothes that I amassed. This would worsen my depression so I would give out these clothes to my co-workers. Recently, nagshift ang addiction ko to to plants and paintings. I buy plants in big batches and when I buy plants, I also buy pots, potting soil and kung ano-ano na ihinahalo ko sa potting soil. Sabi ko sa sarili ko, magfocus na lang ako sa plants para matuto akong mag-alaga ng tanim. Nagawa ko naman but when my depression hit me few months ago, my plants suffered. It is a cycle, a very vicious cycle. It is more than anxiety. It is utter lonesomeness even in the midst of people who matter to me. It is utter loneliness even while laughing with others, the cause of which I do not know where it is coming from. It is the feeling of desolation, hopelessness, worthlessness, rottenness, anxiety, absence of energy, vacuous feeling and simply existing and not living not to mention the headaches and bodyaches.

My third son diagnosed as bipolar disorder. Ang hirap nung una kasi Grabe yun depressions nya. At ilang beses sya uminom ng sleeping pills at Ibang drugs nagwawala sya. Hirap din kami pag Nakakita namin na ganun sya. Hindi rin sya nagtatagal sa trabaho dahil sa sakit nya. Ngayon lumalaban sya sa depression at nag sosolo sya magtrabaho. Lagi kong pinagdarasal na gumaling sya. And I’m praying for you to find peace and happiness

Kudos to both Ice and Karen for a heartfelt ,profound,and genuine conversation. Ice is such an intelligent,honest and talented person that is a rarity in the young artistas now. Kudos also to her family for being always understanding and supportive of her. God bless you all.

Salamat po for doing this interview with Ice. I always think na Ice is one of the most magaling na singer in the Philippines. Glad he’s back on performing again & taking care of his mental health. One day at a time, Ice. Sending you well wishes and good luck on your concert. 🙏🏼

You're still the cutest child star of our generation. Kaming mga fans nandito lang. I still listen to your songs and watch your heartfelt rendition of Muntik na Kitang Minahal nung guest ka sa Sharon.

One of my favorites,. hindi kapo laos sa puso namin Aiza🥰