Christmas Kids - Roar but the best part on loop for 10 mins

“you’ll change your name, or change your mind and leave this fucked up place behind but i’ll know, i’ll know. i’ll know, i’ll know.”

this song reminds me of how it felt to know someone before they changed, knowing exactly how they were and the way they acted, the way you'll always know that person for who they were before they changed.

I stumbled across this song a couple days and literally felt an overwhelming sense of connection. This song speaks to how I feel in my toxic household. I don’t go my my birth name and I hate being home, but the minute I have to go back, I am reminded of “my place” and that even after having my friends refer to me as a person, my parents will always only know me as the sweet and quiet little girl. I can’t leave, can’t have an opinion, but I’ll know that when the truth reveals itself, I’ll finally be free.

Everytime I listen to it, I have a feeling of freedom and leave the past behind.

I feel I can't escape my father. I look like him so I can run. He follows me,my face is just the female version of his,I'm twelve, yet I want to get away from reality. My reality is my father. All the yelling, my ears hurt. I can't run I will always be his daughter. This song reminds me that no matter what I do, I will always know that I am him. I hurts, but I can't stop listening to it.

I want to give a big hug to the child version of me. He really needed it

The song is based on real events. This was the story of Phil and Ronnie Spector. Phil worked with a bunch of famous artists one of them was named Ronnie they had a very abusive relationship. The song is called "Christmas Kids" because Phil adopted children as a Christmas "Gift" to try to fix their relationship. However he did not care about them in the slightest and left in 1 bucket to act as a toilet for the kids. He primarily got them to stop Ronnie from leaving him. This didn’t fix things so he locked her inside, put barbed wire around their mansion, and bars on the windows. The line "You can change your name or change your mind" meant that she couldn't change her name, because everyone knew her as Ronnie and the last name gave her so much legitimacy that she couldn’t be successful without it. She tried to drink herself to death, but she ended up in Alcoholics Anonymous, they helped give her the courage to try to escape. He threatened Ronnie with a gold coffin that he would display her corpse in. He then took her shoes so she couldn't escape as easily. Luckily one of the windows broke and she managed to squeeze herself through the broken window and escape. Unfortunately she lost everything in the divorce including the children, however luckily she managed to sue him for a lot of money. Phil ended up getting caught on other charges and he went to prison. Phil died in 2021 of Covid. And Ronnette died in 2022 at the age of 78 of cancer. TLDR: Ronnie was in a very abusive relationship, Phil threatened her and that’s what the song is about.

This sort of feels like the last day ever in school, where all your friends and the people you met go their own paths and you probably will never see them again.

"Leave this fucked up place behind" im about to lollolololololo ykwim

Much love to everyone in this comment section who's going thru hard times mentally and physically. ❤

"But I'll know. I'll know."

Thank you so much for making the transition so smooth, this is just what i needed!!💞

i want to leave everything behind and just go man. im so tired.

when i hear this. i always remember about my family so happy and always going to the shopping and eat on the resturant. and my dad's sister loves me so much she always buying me a slice of cake ,donut, my grandfather loves me he buys me a nerf when i got high grades and always taking care of me. now its nothing my life is destroyed. i cant bring my happiness again...

this part of the song reminds me of the SA i experienced when i was only a child.. it makes me feel angry, but also a sense of calm, because though i have to live with the memory of it, i know he does too, and he’ll have to live with the horrible thing HE did for the rest of his life.

This song reminds me of my childhood. My house was super toxic and everyone was yelling even at eachother. My ears hurt so bad. (There’s a lot of other stuff that I’m leaving out for personal reasons) Once I turned 18 I left. And I swore to myself that I’d never talk to them. I was so ashamed of myself I changed my name. I changed who I was completely. I would never see myself the same. I was somebody different. One day I looked in the mirror and realized even though I’m a different person. I’m still that child who was abused. Even though no one knows and I look fine. I’ll always know what happened. I’m still that kid and I always will. I have my parents DNA. Even though I’m someone different I’m still the same scared kid. I’ll know who I was and who I am. So glad I stumbled across this song because it really describes me in a toxic and abusive household. My heart goes out to anyone who has also gone through this <3

this song creates an imagine in my head of me, maybe 10-11, putting down the controller for good, after so many years, and as im doing so, all the memories of the fun i had playing the games with my friends come flooding back at once, and then my older self standing the corner watching in tears. like if you can relate

Reminds me of leaving my old toxic home situation where I dealt with so much mental and emotional abuse I felt so much relief but I had to leave my sister behind.. I'll see her again.. it's been over 2 years but soon...

this is my favorite song its sad, but it feels comforting, im just sitting there melting, i can’t cry anymore but im sad beyond even trying to. like somebody pulling you into a different world

I found this song today, it remembered me that whenever I felt overwhelmed and hopeless I wanted to leave this fucked up place behind and start a new and a new identity and live peacefully...but I know It won't happen