Ren - Troubles

There's a really good chance we could chart with tthis one! This would be the first time in history a song about M.E and lyme disease would make the top 40 which would be huge for awareness. Moments like this are pinch me moments and make me feel good about keeping the promise to my younger self. That's because of all you guys so thankyou so much!! If you wana help secure that spot you can download Troubles on all platforms by following the link below Let's go!!! First official release of the year! renmakesmusic.lnk.to/troubles Heres the lyrics for anyone who wants them I don't reach into the past very much for these shards of shattered glass and harsh paper cuts, leave me stuck when I reach in, memories are seaped in hydrochloric acid, I go to war and get passive and freeze up, But music helped the ice to thaw, put a chizzel in the middle swing the hammer of Thor pull it out of the impossible, Excalibur sword etching note pads full of reasons why my feelings are sore The first day that I got sick ejected from cock pit of living Ninteen ,young teen, waking up Bitten posters up, man hunt, Ren went missing Hard to have faith when the gods don't listen The first year maybe was the hardest Waking in a body that was buried like a carcass Brain in the lions den Body in a sharkpit Waking up in pain again Aching broken hearted Persistent little bugger I was bouncing from a doctor to a doctor to a doctor like a table tennis game that has no end So be the fate of Ren Every single question asnwered with a question on the end The second year I came to terms with giving up my dreams mind severed from the means that helped me write these rhyme schemes brain was inflamed The fatigue was Crushing Hard to remain sane with your brain combusting And the third year was murder Living in a purga-tory full of worry wouldn't live to be thirty Life style style hurt me Always in my bed tomb Re-arrange the alphabet and all the letters spell doom Light hurt my eyes Popping pills to survive When you're 23 and mentally you steadily decline 24 I was poor disability benefits What's the benefit of disability it's irrelevant 25 and the scars that were etched... they cracked Elastic bands only stretch so far and then snap Deep in phsycosis hallucinations, troubled vision Visits from the underworld were conjuring my Superstition 25, living back at home with my mum But not because I'm a bum Alone and physically done So thin, so frail, so week I'd become And my skin so pale, never kissed by the sun One time I carved a whole in my chest, just to feel I wish that was a metaphor, the struggle was real When you're living in a holocaust you buckle and kneel There's relief in the teeth of the kiss of cold steel Facts 26 im highly medicated and the pain sophisticated while im laying broke and naked on my back I brought my microphone into my Coffin, started droppin raw thoughts with the grim reaper knocking on the track Then man, lo and behold I heard an angel beckon on this treacherous road Was a stem cell doctor with a generous glow And a cell transplant brought Me out of the Cold And my body got stronger And my skin got younger And my stomach felt hunger for a door that was closed And my soul heard music for the first time Beauty was a word I'd use for this gift of gold Oh lord I forgive you Lord I forgive you Lord I forgive you Make me whole This music I give you Pain that I live through Everything I been through Is yours to hold

About a month ago I met a woman in her 50’s with Lyme disease. She’s from Brighton (REN’s hometown) and is part of a support group for other sufferers. I mentioned that I’d learned more about the disease through a musician called Ren. Her face immediately lit up, she described all the work he’s done to support her group - called him their hero. All of this done quietly, without fuss and without seeking any credit. He’s a good man. ❤

May is Millions missing month, or M.E. awareness month. When I was first diagnosed with M.E. the amount of support and understanding of this illness was very low. I was left to suffer with no real explanation as to why. I wasn’t told at the time that this can be a by product of conditions like Lyme, POTS, MCAS, reactivating viruses. I had to figure that out by myself and it took years of trial and error, and treatments that often left me worse off until I was a functional human again. Over a decade later and the landscape still looks very much the same. Sufferers all over the world re left with debilitating, confusing symptoms and are left to drop off the face of the earth, unnoticed, because of the limited energy people have to advocate for themselves. People go from living fully active lives to trapped in bed, sometimes for decades, with no reasons why. M.E. a debilitating and cruel condition receives less than 6 times the amount of annual funding than Male Pattern Baldness. Nancy Kilmas, a proffesor of microbiology and immunology once stated: ‘My H.I.V. patients for the most part are hale and hearty thanks to three decades of intense and excellent research and billions of dollars invested. Many of my ME/CFS patients, on the other hand, are terribly ill and unable to work or participate in the care of their families. I split my clinical time between the two illnesses, and I can tell you if I had to choose between the two illnesses (in 2009) I would rather have H.I.V.’ I first hand experienced the crushing defeat of having a condition that there is little to no support for, and it breaks my heart to know that every day people are dropping off the face of the earth, and in many instances will be left to suffer for years with no full explanation or support. I am one of the fortunate ones who managed to manage symptoms enough to resume a mostly functional life. I therefore see it as a duty to speak on behalf of people who find themselves in a position where it’s difficult to speak for themselves. I wish I’d had more stories of hope at the time. Now I’m in a position where I could actively make a dent, even if a small one. Ive spent the last month putting together a detailed account of my story in hopes that it helps the people suffering feel less alone, gives them hope, and also hopefully raises awareness and rattles enough cages to highlight the severity of this illness to the point where more is done for it. The first instalment will debut on my YouTube and twitch channels tomorrow at 6:15 PM UK time, and will continue every day until the release of my next track ’Troubles’ on the 9th of may. I hope for the sake of all of us still actively fighting their hardest to participate in life, that this offers some kind of help, because I know what it’s like to feel hopeless. I love you Ren You can pre-save troubles by following this link! renmakesmusic.lnk.to/troubles

As a mom of a 30yo with health issues. I want to acknowledge his mom who was there for him.❤

My man Ren. I'm 46 years old and your music does something to me that I've never felt from music before. I appreciate you mate. As a Canadian I love that you found healing, and positive progress in my country. I cannot wait until you start touring. I'll be the guy in the front row singing every lyric to every song with you. Your song "Hi Ren " is a masterful piece of art. And "Troubles" stands right there beside it. Keep getting better brother, because this world needs an artist like you. Cheers mate🍻

I never comment, but I will for you Ren. YouTube gods please throw this on the recommended of everyone out there! <3

My wife (GF at the time) fell ill suddenly at age 24. She spent 15 years unable to feed herself and sometimes slipping into a coma. Finally we found a clinic that could and wanted to help her. Now at 46 she has the energy of a 60-y.o. woman. Which doesn't sound all that great -- but it is amazing progress for someone who sometimes could not even speak, focus her eyes, or recognise her husband. At this very moment she's outside in the drizzle, planting seedlings in the garden. There is always hope.

One MILLION views baby! Congrats Ren! I've said it before, your life may be tragic, but the soundtrack is fucking awesome. Love you brother!

To all you artists, performers, writers, poets, etc…. Ren has demonstrated a template to create meaning, solace, compassion, and empathy. I for one, had lost a considerable amount of my passion for music appreciation and my own creative potential. Though it may sound like hyperbole, the art Ren has created has markedly improved my life in several ways. I see REN’s influence in other aspiring independent artists who have written more creatively and made videos pushing their previous practices and methods.

I just played this for my daughter who has a Connective Tissue disorder, POTSsnd heart condition. It made us both cry, because we felt heard. Thank you Ren. Keep pushing bro, but remember to stop, breathe and just be as well. Luv ya ❤❤

“There’s relief in the teeth of the kiss of cold steel” 😢 Well done Ren, you’ve outdone yourself with this one. 🤍🤍🤍

Thanks for keeping that promise to your younger self REN , it is so powerful for those of us who suffer from these horrid illnesses to have an advocate like you out there. You are not one of the industry arse holes who as soon as they see fame buy a mountain of coke and play the money game. You are the genuine article...and it says so much about you to do this and the Chapters , man I related to so much I cried ( me a grown arse man...got M.E and Fibo at 20, got worse over the years and am now bed bound ). You're a good man Ren and I admire your humility and your talent in equal measure.

This isn't entertainment, this is real life. This is HOPE for so many people. Thank you! ❤

I love how we typically beg for forgiveness but Ren is like "Lord I forgive you" for what he's been through. Generational artist ❤

When I got diagnosed with ME last year the whole process and ignorance in the medical community is so incredibly shocking. Thanks so much for bringing public awareness to these horrible illnesses

Dam, this put a massive smile on my face. Had a couple chats with you years back & we both are at a stage with our Lyme where we get to live in our purpose. Hard to put this long journey into 1 song but you killed it. Keep living your best life Ren.

I watched woodstock happen, and yet I'm completely taken over by the brilliance of this vibrant artist.. Excellence is always appreciated 🌟

My close nurse-colleague friend got COVID from a patient in 2021. Now she has been diagnosed with M.E. Initially, doctors said "You have long-COVID.. so sorry... we have no cure and no answers." Finally, she got a diagnosis of M.E. -- she lives in her house, afraid and alone. My heart is broken for this brilliant, highly educated, successful woman who dedicated her life to helping others survive illness. She has all kinds of crazy symptoms and is really drowning . Thank you, Ren, for bringing awareness to your terrible illness. I want to show my friend that you never gave up, and now you have HOPE. God bless you, precious one.

I just watched Unrest Ren. What an amazing documentary! Thank you so much for everything you do and being a voice for the missing! #Unrest #RenMakesStuff

I've been missing for more than half my life. Sometimes it feels like I'll never be found. Thank you, Ren, for helping people to see us before we disappear. #MillionsMissing #M.E