Retirement Video

Published 2024-05-01

This took so many takes that there's some stuff I thought I said here that didn't make it in. (Read this section once you're done watching or else it won't make sense.)

Some extra thoughts:

-One of the fears I don't know how to grapple with is if people I know IRL found out. The mindset of older generations usually is, if it doesn't make money, then it's not worth it doing. I would feel embarrassed and definitely made fun of by either friends or family and that would not help my situation in the slightest.

-To give more reasoning about why I don't want my stuff reuploaded: the username just reminds me of another failed project and it stings to look at. I don't like this name anymore or the branding associated with it and would rather be forgotten.

-To reiterate, I will still occasionally hang out with friends I made under this handle as I recognize it's unwise to leave myself completely alone while dealing with mental health issues.

-I never advertised my streams because streaming community labs content is VERY risky, so I did it off of YT with the appropriate content warnings and age filters on the other site. I would filter out the egregious stuff and curate content for the YT shorts here. Please don't go looking for my streams now as I'm also winding that down soon. I don't want any donations out of pity; that'd just make me feel bad.

-I had a lot of stuff in the works before ultimately making this decision. I commissioned artwork for some ASMR videos and even a full 3d model. So, if you see these posted somewhere, that does not signal a return. I just don't want to get your hopes up!

-I edited out a few coughs that peaked the mic so if it suddenly goes quiet, that's why.

I learned a lot from my time using this channel. Thank you so much for being a part of this journey! While it was really stressful making these videos, I'm glad I got to make some of your days just a little bit better.