My current psychosis and why I was admitted to the psych ward. 🧠

Am I the only one who gets happy to watch ads while watching her videos? I know she is struggling financially so I'm glad I could help by watching

I want to offer this as encouragement, so I hope that it lands as encouragement. I live with CPTSD and am hyper vigilant, never really feel safe, always need a plan and always need to know how to get away quickly from or hide wherever I am. I have worked many, many years in therapy learning about myself, my reality, my past, my symptoms and learning methods to manage myself. CPTSD is a permanent part of my life and I will always need to manage my symptoms. Something that has helped me is thinking about mental illness in the same way I think about physical illness. For example, if someone has diabetes, they will always need to be aware of their illness, manage their symptoms, be aware of anything that will impact their diabetes and pay close attention to their body. No one thinks twice about someone with diabetes who is daily managing their illness. Why is a mental illness any different? I decided to love, value and respect myself with CPTSD and embrace that daily care for CPTSD is a part of my routine life. I began to feel less "broken" or "undesirable" because of CPTSD. This has been a very slow and not steady process, but it has been worth the effort. I can have peace and joy while living with a mental illness.

I was at a dermatologist office and I thought the lady across the waiting room was laughing at me, but when I told my husband about her. He said there was no lady across the room period. Okay mania is upon me, but as usual I don't accept its mania. Two weeks later I'm at my GPs office for a wellness check, and when I was done I exited out to the waiting room to leave, and again heard a lady say here she comes and started laughing. I looked up and there was nobody laughing and there was nobody who looked like the woman at dermatologist office. We went to my psychiatrist office and he increased my dosage of lithium. Thank God it worked. Your never alone Kimberly, because your YouTube Fam is always here to listen. Love and Peace to you💕✌️🌹

Short note about olfactory hallucinations: I have them from vestibular migraine. When it first started happening, I really thought I was breaking with reality. When I finally had a reason for smelling things that aren't really there, I became more comfortable with asking people if they also smell whatever it is. I only ask if it's the smell of something dangerous, like burning electrical wires or gas. Olfactory hallucinations are really terrible. I never smell anything nice! It's always something awful!

I had no insight 99.9% of the time and I also had persecutory delusions about intelligence agencies. It's utter hell and I feel so bad when anyone has to deal with that. I gotta say insight makes it a bit less miserable but it's still difficult. I'm so glad you're getting better. That's amazing. Yours sounds a lot like mine. I hope you continue to get better!

Another video this week? We are blessed! Thank you Kimberly

Psychotherapy is very important for Schizophrenia so hope you have more sessions. Hope you full recovery.

Hope you feel better soon and manage to sort out your finances. I have also had the same thoughts about my neighbours, they have a pigeon scarer and I've asked them not to turn it on but I get convinced it's on because of my cats or they don't like me when I'm unwell. A good tip when you are not sure if it's the psychosis or not is when you describe something as them or they. Like they can read my thoughts, they are watching me etc.

You’re fortunate that you knew you were having trouble. Glad you’re getting help. Stay on your meds. Prayers for healing.

It's really great that youre planning on going to art school, i think many great things could come from it. There's not a lot that can take your mind off things, the way art does. ☺️ i hope art school will be an awesome experience, and that you wont have to worry too much about financial matters anymore. 🙂

Hi Kimberly! Thank God for family support. I'm so sorry you got so stressed out but the way you explained it made sense. Maybe the money from your mom will help for awhile. I wish I knew what to do for psychosis but I still don't know, we just got to do our best. Glad you got some help and hopefully that doesn't happen for years at a time now!

I'm glad to hear you're doing okay now <3 benefits and stuff are really stressful. I'm glad you were able to get help - here in New Zealand, I attempted suicide twice and wasn't admitted. MH services here are terrible. Glad that Sweden seems a little bit better, because for those of us with schizophrenia / schizoaffective disorder, we need and deserve help. Sending you love xx

I have the same issue with noise from neighbors, and just loud noises in general. I fight back by being as quiet as possible and practically tiptoe around my apartment. I say this even as somebody who owns a very powerful component stereo system with thousands of records and CDs, so I could make a lot of noise if I so wished.

God bless you sweet lady. You have a lovely gentle voice. I think you would be very good at asmr.

I wish you a fast recovery

im worried about my finances too. its a constant worry. esp with the cost of living crisis.

Thank you for sharing your experience.

I don't know if you are frugal, but if you're not, it would definitely help your financial situation. I also wish you excellent grades on your next assignment. Keep healing.

Mental illness doesn't allow for consistent work

hope you don't misunderstand me... but i can't help but laugh at how many psychotic things we have in common. sometimes you just gotta laugh at how silly we can be. like everything you say, i do too. ugh 😭 it's not easy. but i am glad to hear that there is progress!! 💗 and that you located the source of your stress. i live in denmark you know, so i completely get the money thing. it's almost not possible to live on that salary ! i have been retired now. so i finally have a little more money now. it's not easy. i hate the system so much. because IF you could work, you would!! to get money. and so you're just stuck in the system and stuck kinda poor. it s****cks so much