tired of missing you | depressing love playlist

it’s just so empty. i was so happy before we met. and the happiest i’ve ever been during our relationship. but, now i’m back exactly where i was before we met, and i feel worse than i ever have in so long.

what hurts more is the fact that i dont know what i did wrong. he just started acting different and he wasn’t the same man i loved and cherished. then one day he flirted with one of my girl friends he just met in front of me, ive knew her for a while, he added her to a gc we had with a couple of my close friends. she’s nice. i don’t blame her, im not mad at her either. i’m mad at him for thinking it was fine to flirt with someone as a “joke”. thats what shattered me. but sometimes think to myself what he would do if it was just them. maybe he wouldn’t have done anything because nobody wouldve witnessed it, or maybe he wouldve done something way worse. i already overthought our relationship in the past, i have major trust issues and the fact i get jealous easily. he had a lot of women confess their feelings for him but im not the type to be “stop talking to women 😠!! or else!!!” yk, the controlling ones, i just wanted him to be happy but also remain loyal. i shouldve seen the red flags in the relationship. whenever a girl would confess to him, he would always send me a screenshot or just randomly tell me “oh yeah, this girl told me she liked me haha” and then ask me for help.. like cant you just say you had a girlfriend and you weren’t interested?? but i knew he wouldnt say that. cause immediately after he asked for help he would say “nothing that would hurt them though, i dont wanna hurt them yk?”. i dont know if he also flirted with them and thats why he acted like that, idk anymore, it just hurts. like i myself have a lot of guy friends but i never flirted with them because i was in a relationship with him. they never confessed to me either cause they knew i was in a relationship with him. i dont know if those women ever did. ive always had a feeling that i wasn’t good enough for him, and i would always tell him that. he knew that i thought that he deserved someone better. but to play with my feelings like that, while in a relationship with me? that shit stings. i don’t know if he did it on purpose to see what i would do or something (i broke up with him, thats what i did☠️) i know we’re both young and dumb, we make mistakes but out of all the relationships i’ve had, he hurt me the most. OH AND, BY THE FUCKING WAY, when i broke up with him, he apologized and said he understood, but proceeded to say that he has been trying to lose feelinngs for me on purpose by talking to me less and less. then afterwards he said that the flirting thing was a joke. yeah okay, sure. but the thing is.. jokes are supposed to be funny. the only person in that gc that found that “flirting with another girl while being in a relationship” joke was himself. yikes!! it still stings though, he said he loved me and only me but proceeded to do something so fucked up..and i hate myself for missing him, after EVERYTHING hes done. i keep making excuses to try and forgive him and forget the things he’s done because a part of me is still madly in love with him, and i really wanted to make our relationship work but i know it will never be the same, that day really fucked up my mental health. everytime i think about it, i don’t have the energy to do anything. and i blame myself some days. maybe it was my fault, maybe if i done better, if i was a better girlfriend, if i told him more often how much i loved him.. or maybe it was something i said in the past. i was probably being annoying. maybe i was the one who fucked up. idk anymore. it just hurts. when i think im over him, the next day im sobbing over the things we used to talk about, the things we used to say, everything we did. i miss it, i miss everything. especially our friendship. i miss that the most. i hate myself, for fucking up like this.

I hate that I still miss him, but I don't want to forget about him.

I'm over the relationship but I can't get over the feeling of missing the friendship.

Yes I am tired!! , can't wait until I'm over him 😭I'm sick of it

Its been years,months, days, and he's still on my mind. I just dont understand how you can show so much love for a person and show that you care for them so much but then they just leave they leave you heartbroken, depressed, and lonely. Like I was there for you and you couldn't be here for me? But i still care after you hurt me.

Not me, wearing headphones and listening to this Playlist at 2AM

if u're sad, remember, u have a lot of people who care about u, u are strong, and definetly u are enough <3

The ocean fell in love with the sky. She loved her so much, but they could never touch. She would reach higher and higher, making her surface roll like hills that fell just short of mountains. The sky would cry on stormy nights, filling the ocean with her tears, in hopes that her water would rise high enough to embrace. But they never could. So, one early hour, when the sky held the glowing sun, she offered the ocean a gift. She told her she’d give half of her beautiful color to the once clear ocean. So she did. The deep hue slipped down the horizon, filling the clear waters with a sapphire glow. The sky was left with only a bright, dusty periwinkle. Finally, a piece of her was with the ocean at all times, and she could rest easily. So she set down the sun and slept, knowing that their love would last forever.

I didn’t even want him at first it was HIM who wanted me. He fed me a whole bunch of sweet lies along with broken promises, even made me fall in love and then one day just up and left like nothing ever mattered. How does your heart even mend after something like that? He’s so unaffected and it kills me because I still compare every guy that I meet to him, somehow it always comes back to him:(

just imagine there is two people. both were in a relationship with each other. they ended it but they both still want each other. they sit and listen to this playlist every night thinking of what they once had with each other.

Man, she’s gone. Forever, I’ll never see her again. And I can’t stop thinking I could have changed the outcome. I miss her. It seems as if no one else does though, and its sickening. I would give anything for a little longer. My heart sank when I heard she didn’t make it, I had no time to process it, no time to grief. Rest In Peace I will never forget you <3

I loved him.... He stood up for me when I was s3ggsualy harassed, he made me smile, he used to look at me with love/awe, every time when he sees me he will give the widest smile, whenever we were alone he will come up to me and just pat my head and beam like he was the luckiest boy... But ... his family had to transfer... and now I am just....idk... I miss the way he looks at me whenever he sees me smile... But....ig it was just a situation ship...

I haven’t lost him yet but I feel him drifting away and it hurts bc I actually love him..

POV: you wrote a “just because” poem Just because I love him And I care about him, Care about his health, And want him to be happy. Eventually, He will want something “To be single” he says To be on a “break” To figure out how to feel Turned into dumping me Late at night, Over text, And as I watch him break me I can’t do anything but stare and hope Hope for a better tomorrow Hope for him

“do you think we’re soulmates in every reality?” he asks me, not even a glance towards my body. The question makes my chest ache. I remember all the times i wanted to hug him. All the time I was missing him without even having met him. All the pain. All the failed attempts. “yes, I think so.” I say out loud. I open my eyes to realize I’m daydreaming again. I look around, to see the room I’m so familiar with, the room I’m disappointed to see each morning, when I wake up. I’m so tired of missing you, my love! I’m coming for you, though. It only takes one successful attempt.

i can’t wait till i’m actually happy, not temporarily happy. like when someone makes a funny joke and i laugh but then i go home and sleep for 4 hours cause i can’t be bothered to any of my responsibilities or emotions. i can’t feel it, i’ll be better at some point. i’m just scared it’ll slip away again like it did before. the things i used to like just make me sad now and they say “it has to get worse before it gets better” but i don’t want it to be worse. i’m barely keeping my head above water now.

I miss you, my love. Thank you for everything.

Ppl listen to this playlist cz they cant get over the ones they love while m listening to it cz m studying calculus nd it is so chill 🥲💔

Years has passed by. The tears have dried up with nothing left to cry out. This empty feeling has never once left me alone without his presence in my life, I don’t think there’s any point in this lonely life. Questions fill up my mind trying to find the correct path which is forgetting him but I can’t. I gave my everything and I’m left with nothing… Maybe it’s time to let him go but why does it feel like a heavy burden on me…