A week in my life (post chemo) | A real talk about body dysmorphia from cancer

Unless you’ve been through this journey people really don’t understand…..when. Was in treatment and walking around I would see people laughing, enjoying their life and I was like I just want to feel like that again….🤞😊❤️🤗👍🙏. 6 months later after treatment ended I can feel happiness like they were again….. you will to Amanda….❤️🤗👍🙏

I totally get grieving the loss of your old body. The way we look and feel in our bodies can be very important to us. Nothing wrong with wanting to feel comfortable in our skin! You got this!

Dogs are such a comfort when we’re not well….❤️🤗👍

Dogs are the best ❤ they sense when we don't feel well ,and try to comfort us ❤

You have a right to grieve and no one has the right to say a word to you about it. Because you grieve your old self that doesn't mean you aren't happy to be alive.

Hi Amanda, I began following you after my sister was diagnosed with advanced ovarian cancer. I didn't want to ask her many questions, so I'm finding out "her experience" through you (even though I know everyone has their own cancer journey). But I now watch you regularly for many other reasons (your creativity, darling pets, home renovation, life in the northwest, etc). Thanks for taking the time to put these personal videos together for us. Nancy from Northern California

Please don't feel you have to hide your true feelings. This is why you're doing the videos. This is a traumatic change for your body and mind. I like the idea of not soldiering through and just letting your body heal itself, listening to what it wants you to do. Good job!

I had Head and Neck Cancer in 2012. Omgosh I really had no idea what was going to hit me. It changed my life forever. Cancer treats everyone differently. I find you have a very calming affect on me xx

Feel the way you need to feel. No one understands what you're going through. I'm living with lupus and initially people were telling me how I should feel. I get it but unless you're going through it then you won't know. Proud of you and glad you're sharing your journey!

A loss is still a loss it doesn't mean you're not greatful its part of the process f every one who thinks your not greatful

For me the fatigue was the worst…along with the nausea…I made it a point to go outside everyday for a couple of walks….fresh air always helped me….unfortunately chemotherapy is cumulative so by the 5th and 6 th round it took longer to feel better….I guess I watch your channel to help in any way I can and to remind myself of how far I’ve come and what I went through… I’m now cancer free had my second checkup this week and my Dr was very happy with my progress…..I’m 68 and was diagnosed almost one year ago with sage 4 endometrial serous carcinoma…… If I can help in any way Don’t hesitate to reach out to me…❤️🤗👍🙏🙏

I feel this. Before I found my cancer, I had lost some weight and was finally getting a handle on my wellness. I had healed a bunch of long term chronic issues with diet and then cancer. And I lost my hair. And I gained weight back. And I couldn’t eat the foods that made me feel my best because they tasted gross. And then adrenal insufficiency took away the rest of my energy and that linger. I know the only way out is through, and I know this is just where I am right now. I’ll get better at managing the AI, and I need to get through surgery and radiation and then the cancer part will be done… but yeah, I can’t wait to recognize myself in the mirror again. ❤

I rinsed with baking soda and salt water several times a day …..my Dr said it would help with sores in the mouth and I never did get any…..😊❤👍🙏

All I can say is though I don't have cancer, I have a few other waves to ride. I've ridden them out, ridden them thru, sometimes thought I'd never get thru it, but I have. You have my love, respect and endless prayers...sincerely❤️🙏

You are going through so much and your thoughts and feelings are perfectly normal. But you should stop listening to other people's ideas of how you should feel or behave. This is your cancer, your journey and your life and only you know how to get through this nightmare and how it impacts on you. So take the support and love from people who care and ignore the idiots who have no idea of what this is like for YOU. sending love xx

Unless a person has walked in your shoes it’s hard to know how you feel how you are grieving your body and your journey. You are an inspiration you will find your balance! Sending prayers and positive thoughts.

You look great, seriously….Praying for You…much love from Canada 🇨🇦..

For nausea, smelling an alcohol pad actually has evidence behind it. I know it sounds weird but worth a try. Nurse here!

I really appreciate you Sharing how are you grieving your body image of 2 you used to be versus how you are now I? Think that's a terrific thing to be sharing. I wish someone had shared that was me before I went through what I went through. And to know that it's OK.. That was so meaningful to me. And was very helpful. How you talked about you won't be the same person once it's over and grieving the old person. I am really glad that you shared that It was so helpful to me

Thank you for your realness and rawness. We KNOW and we ARE greatful for everyday BUT we are also going through a serious, raw, real human experience right now and it's okay to be sad, and have body dysmorphia and have feelings of negativity. Make space for that too. Its toxic to keep it positive 24/7 and fake a whole ass mood and smile. I have my duvet days. I allow myself grace and safe space to be sad and deal with everything that comes with cancer. Anyone who has a problem with that aren't my people and thats just noise 😂❤ sending you so much light and well wishes ❤❤