I Got Life-Changing News About Myself That I Want To Share

There's no greater divinatory tool than the YouTube recommendations algorithm. Ironically I follow this channel because you're one of the only occultists who seems normal.

As someone who is neurodivergent, a magician, and also queer I relate so much to this. Thank you for your openness. I love your videos.

This is INCREDIBLY relatable. Thank you

From the moment I came across your channel I perceived you as highly intelligent individual (and still do), which is what attracted me to this channel. maybe a bit shy at times, but never arrogant. I think a lot of people in society are quick to judge and put a stigma on things they do not comprehend, and I agree it is them who have the disorder lol. Thank you for sharing.

As I watch your video, feeling that struggle and the emotion affected me as well. I hope you're aware that you have built a little community who cares about you. You have helped me immensely, and I hope you know that I like you for you. Seeing you be your authentic self is very liberating to me. Because I know it can be done. You see the world in a way that is needed, and I love to see that expression. I hope that gives you some sense of happiness

Thanks for sharing. I'm 95% sure I have autism, but here in Canada it costs $3 - $5k to get an adult diagnosis, so its out of the question for me right now. I've taken the tests and the results are clear, and my friends all agree it explains a lot. So I have chosen to self-identify as autistic. I forgive my parents who still deny and laugh when I bring it up. I'm in my late 30s and I just wish they were looking for it when we were kids. It could have prevented so much suffering and misunderstanding. I'll be watching for it in my own 2 kids.

You are so well spoken person God has purpose for your life

Keep on keeping on and thank you for sharing.❤️👍

Im currently suffering through what seems to actually be autistic burnout and severe depression. I always felt wired differently and it did lead to problems. I also recently started reading and learning about it and man, that diagnosis explains everything about mw, so I get your struggles. Its a bit confusing at first, but since I know it got so much easier to allow myself to stim and also to choose not to mask. Has definitely helped so far, the suffering is real and people sadly often dismiss it. Good luck and blessings, I appreciate your work

As someone who's also on the spectrum I'm really glad you made this video! Its very relatable.

Hey brother, 61 and autistic. It was Earth shaking coming to awareness. I've always felt the same things you've described here. We're the new normal 🙏🙏🙏

I have nothing but respect for you 🙏🏾

All people have distinctive psychological traits , but evolution comes from mutations both mental and physical I prefer to see pathologies as path- ologies they will take you in the path you are meant to walk ,to evolve yourself and the species . Humans are still evolving and I do firmly believe no science has the final word on whats right or wrong , a few years ago lobotomy was a nobel procedure a few centuries trepanation was normal ,a few decades ago homosexuality was a pathology,now conversion therapy is banned in most countries ,with Autism ,ADHD,Asperger,OCD etc at some point it will be exactly the same . Just personality traits that had to be included equally in "normal " day to day interaction ,of course understanding normal as a make believe society thats constantly hypnotized to consume ,and obey . Someday we as a species will be able to love one another without labels but it will take a huge cataclysm larger than COVID ,and war to re humanize ourselves and remember why did we needed to work together . Nobody should feel ostracised as every mutation and diversity contributes to the human world development

Your path to diagnosis and experiences are shockingly similar to my own. While I am sorry that you have had these struggles, it brought comfort to me to know that I am not alone, and I thank you for sharing this story with your audience

Both my sons and myself are on the spectrum. Thank you for getting the message out there that autism is in fact a huge spectrum and completely unique among individuals. For example myself and my eldest son are functioning, however my youngest has severe difficulties. He is completely dependent on myself and his father and he always will be. When you said awkward that hit home …. That’s pretty much me . Good luck going forward now and I wish you health and happiness.

Man, there's not enough words to convey how relatable your story is. I haven't been diagnosed with autism, only ADHD, but I am damn sure I have autism, especially since I took the same assessment as you did and scored high. It's really painful when other people are shitty even when differences are innocuous and harmless. People come with all these biases and schemas of "how things are and how things must be", that are quite rigid and inflexible, ironically. I say ironically because it's us autists who are told we have rigid thinking, but the reason why this condition is diagnosed and presents challenges is precisely the rigidity of neurotypical people when it comes to their social norms. But I digress. It can indeed be very frustrating to experience all these things you described with fallouts and misunderstandings, all because one missed a "crucial step" during communication. I am glad that I know another fellow autist who practices magic and spirituality! This makes me happy and made my day. Shalom

I have only just found your channel by happenstance, It's a real pleasure to sit and listen to a magician who is just an ordinary man and doesn't have a massive ego. Similar to yourself I have always had a fascination with the magical realm and found everything with regards to the subject so romantic and enchanting. May I suggest listening to a man called 'David Bingham' he mentions autism quite a bit especially the videos where people realise there true nature because I was searching for years then everything ended for real when I discovered him, anyway thankyou for the vids and kind regards.

Loved this, thank you for sharing, this is extremely helpfull and healing information for many folks.

The same thing happened to me when I turned 30. Then I found out I had been diagnosed as a kid, but my parents never told me. I've learned a lot since then. There's no such thing as "mild" or "severe" autism, since we're all a unique grab bag of traits that fluctuate over time-- sometimes day to day. But all of us have synaptic endings that didn’t prune in utero. As you said, that's going to be different for everyone-- even if some of us have traits that don't tend to be as noticeable to others (most days). It was really hard for me at first, but now I wouldn't change it about myself. And I've since had autistic students, friends, & colleagues-- as well as finding that a huge chunk of the magic practitioners I know are autistic, too. Very glad to see this video. Take care of yourself, & welcome to the club!

My dear friend, there aren’t many people on this channel who have a positive effect on me as well as on others like you. I perceive you as a highly self-reflected and authentic person. When you are speaking, it expresses not only empathy, but also clarity and structure. And this effect can only be cause by a person with a stable system of personal values and the ability of reflection and learning by experience. I think, autism can also be a gift, cause it enables you to valuable insights in a special topic and new perspectives. When people judge you this tells nothing about you, but more about themselves. „Normal“ people are - this is only my experience - closer to demons than others. I think one of the reasons is their will to comply (as said) and their desire to conform - and under this surface there is much suppressed anger, envy and greed, because people are individuals with an individual life path, however they have conformed to live a compromise (which is called culture) and to sacrifice their own individual traits. Many people are also highly competitve and compare themselves always to others (this is where the ego comes in). But the biggest reason to conform is fear of losing all, fear of death and fear of punishment. People are trained to conform to survive within a hierarchical system (and we needn’t talk about, who is on top of this worldly system, cause the higher the position the more wicked and twisted is the mindset = narcissistic). Interesting, that this all is coming to the light. So, you can consider „normal“ people as dysfunctional, cause most of them are denying themselves due to their survival instincts and sometimes also selfishness and false pride. And when they see someone different, they feel fear, it destroys their illusion of their artificial world. I am not autistic but I can imagine how it feels being confronted with an entire world of individuals who are functioning completely different. I am also different, not knowing exactly why, but I am a deep thinker and I am mostly independent from others. I have clearvision as well, not controlled, and I can also relate to other realms. Ahh yes, and I am also left handed, a deadly sin for older generations. 😂 People tend to complain about everything, cause this can’t be our problem. They have to do their own homework instead.