Big Oxygen

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Publicado 2023-06-10
All artwork kindly illustrated by Valeia. She has been ridiculously patient with me and you can find more of her stuff here ►
www.instagram.com/valeia.s/
and here: www.inprnt.com/profile/valeias/


My stuff ►

New book of depressing poems: tinyurl.com/27fdfh63 (you may need to change your region)
Other books what I wrote yo: www.amazon.com/stores/Exurb1a/author/B06XFM14M8
For sending personalised insults: www.facebook.com/exurb1a/
T-shirts, mugs, and sadness: teespring.com/stores/exurb1a
I also make horrendous music: soundcloud.com/exurbia-1
Help me to do this full-time if you're deranged enough (and thank you kindly): www.patreon.com/exurb1r?ty=h


Music used ►

Mehendi Rachnewali by Sidhant Kapoor:    • Mehendi Rachnewali  

And an orchestral arrangement of Wedding Day at Troldhaugen by Grieg. A piano version you might enjoy instead:    • Grieg "Wedding Day at Troldhaugen" P....  


Unnecessary bonus trivia ►

This one started in 2021 when I was listening to some top-tier Hungarian-Romani folk music (Csilavtu by Kalyi Jag, if you're curious). It clearly sounded like two people arguing about truth on the bridge of a starship, which seemed as though it might go into a story somewhere. I tried quite hard to buy the rights to the music because no other music would do for the story. Well that didn't go so well and I lost a bunch of sleep and emails over it, but thought the story might work without it anyway. No problem, I'll be done with the whole project in a month tops, I thought. That was over a year ago now. My hair is greyer since, and I never got the rights to the track, and I'm beginning to lose the will to live, but you can't deny two people were getting kinda passive-aggressive on the bridge of a starship. And isn't that really what life is all about?

Thank you for watching, as always. You're ever so kind.

(Oh yeah, AND HERE'S YOUR GODDAMN MYSTERY LINK, OKAY?    • He’s perfect  )

Todos los comentarios (21)
  • @not58me
    Pov: you played among us once
  • @Fenrir1218_
    My philosophy is that the janitor doesn't get paid enough for this...
  • @alexbaker393
    I think a weed sponsorship on this channel would be scarily lucrative for both parties
  • @agmass
    "I strongly considered spacing myself" "Fighting with dictionaries" This is the best comedy i've ever seen.
  • @2DayDavid
    This is why I only get my oxygen from locally owned oxygen co-ops.
  • This is just a 25 minute long elaborate rant about gaslighting. I love it.
  • @XraptorNZ
    This is the single best story of philosophy I have heard ever… This needs to be a movie with an infinite budget for gods sake. This stuff is gold.
  • The change from "narrativist" to "friend" at the end there.... chilling
  • @josefsmakal3719
    The artwork is beautiful, and the story is a great combination of insanity and humor
  • @RamboCreativity
    "Reality is that which, when you stop believing in it, doesn't go away." My favorite quotes always come from exurb1a
  • @TheAdvertisement
    I think the coolest part about all of this is how the "The most tempting ideology is the belief that you have none." and "Is that not an ideology in itself?" lines explain everything. The Narrativist does not see any belief. He can write them all and yet cannot believe them. And yet... he still wanted to experience it. He believed his life could be improved by experiencing it. In the same way "The blind do not see black, they simply do not see" isn't a full truth because the blind can still imagine and visualize structures, the Narrativist does not have no belief, he simply has formed a primitive belief from his experience and orders. Perhaps an objective one, maybe a primitive one, but at the end of the day it is still an ideology. You cannot truly have no belief. The mission was doomed from the start. Edit: I wish to add onto this, something that I'm not sure if I can fully believe and yet with a shuttering breath I must accept... facts are malleable. As the Narrativist said, no amount of facts truly matter to someone if their beliefs can warp it however. Yet here I am, someone who comments far too often, and argues far too often to. I'm a believer of science, I constantly cite sources and try to convince everyone from the mildly deterred to the insane zealots to accept the truth and stop hating each other blindly, often in defense of equality or climate change or anything that we know accepting would only make things better. And yet, in my belief in science not an ideology in itself? I can tell myself I'm correct the entire time but the only thing that affirms that over anyone else are the writings of other people. I know it's true in my mind and yet others don't, and if others don't, does that make it true? Of course it does, we'd die without oxygen. But what if we didn't? The point of this addendum is not that I now accept that I'm a believer in religion just like anyone else. No, that's ridiculous, facts still exist. Reality still exists. But the point is to remove myself from my scientific pedestal. To realize that no amount of science can convince someone who's not open to being convinced. That in a sense, from the believer's point of view, a belief can warp any reality. It doesn't matter if I'm right, if I'm seen as wrong by some people, I will forever be wrong in the view of those people, no matter how many facts I recite. It's truly a chilling philosophy, but in itself, it's a reality. Will that stop me from trying to spread the truth? Of course not. But in the end I'm trying to work for a better tomorrow same as anyone else, it's just that better tomorrow is different for everyone, and even the desire for a better tomorrow in itself is a belief. It's just... something to keep in mind.
  • Goddamn I could listen to a 16 hour audio book of this, like with each of the crew being friends of the janitor and slowly going mad over each chapter. Goddamn I love absurdism
  • @indeed_iditor
    The naritivist is the best antagonist of any fiction I've ever seen....also the music perfect.
  • @rufussinijas
    This is philosophy, this is art. Love your work. Please, never stop.
  • @Nonotherthan
    Your entire channel is like a psychedelic for me. Every time you upload I’m excited because I get to trip. Been a listener for a long time, I’m glad to see you still exist.
  • @blobloblob0186
    I feel like this guy watches a sci fi movie or two, plays some games, then takes a shit ton of acid and proceeds to write a script
  • @Chrome2310
    Bro this could have easyly been a movie. Props for great content as usual.
  • @SamWeltzin
    I appreciate that this doesn't end with an advocation of any of the philosophies contending with each other. There's a strong hint that everybody just dies because objective reality is a thing, but it's exclusively in the image of the spaceship and doesn't show what's happening with the people. Even with the spaceship image at the end itself, it's unclear if it's being torn apart or if something else is going on, given the bands of light around it. Fiction that leaves its interpretation up to the reader is real interesting. Takes guts and leaves a lot of room for discussion and thought.
  • @Banana_Fusion
    You literally made an entire movie which had a hell off a lot of philosophy, sociology and all that nonsense in. Truly, respect. o7